Sunday, December 03, 2006


Over the course of the last week I have hit the some lowest points of depression, lacking hope, not caring, not bad enough to end it though. I was at the point where i was anti-social and didn't care to even go out and try to have some sembalance of life. Then quite by mistake i found a web page that sparked a little interest and thought what the hell let's see what it says, the site The scary part was that it was so exact with personalities that fit me all too well for a coincidence, and it was a little unnerving. Almost as if i had awoken from a strange dream and started feeling emotions that i have not had in some time. Although it wasn't till tonight that i have felt so much better, I got am IM from a good friend that just listened or should i say she read what i was thinking and helped me through it just by asking more questions, as I enjoy writing short stories and poetry as anyone that happens along this page will discover. I feel as though everything is renew and i am looking at the world for the first time. I see beauty where i didn't see it before.To any of the friends I have or friends I had, I Apologize to you all. I know I haven't been the kind of friend that I should have been for that i am sorry and it isn't an excuse for the way that i have been acting as of late. The good that is coming now is I am starting on the road to a better life.

To everyone I hope you don't take to much for granted, you could wake up and it might be gone. Just keep in mind you probably have it better than you think you just never stopped to look at all the things and people in you life that can never be replaced or replicated. Count yourself blessed even if you can only name one. That one person or thing in your life is what really matters along with your family all you have to do is Keep The Faith. (I am aware that I just quoted Bon Jovi) but it is true. Some have to learn the hard way and it is a long dark and cold road. I think i will come off of it a better person. I just have to keep my footing on the way down the last hill.

To Marie, the friend I spoke of, thank you for being there to help me get to the top of that hill, I can never thank you enough you've helped me in more ways than one but if you have read this then I guess you already realize that.


Blogger Queenie said...

I am glad to read that you are ridding yourself of demons.
I am just plain glad to read your words again. You expressing yourself so much better.
Now I am going to the site you have posted for a look-see. I like to be un-nerved.


11:54 PM  
Blogger themindofwilliam said...

And so...the sun shines may have to wave at me when next we meet I've gotten used to the rain cloud that has followed you so's good you've ridden yourself of it...ciao

3:05 AM  
Blogger Terrible lie said...

That is soooo weird cause I just did that the other day!!!! And it is very accurate!!!! I also have a book that if you take your b-d and look it up it gives you an insite on yourself... It is also very accurate!!!
I go through shat like that and I have finally given myself goals in my life that I am now going to achieve and I tell myself everyday that It is only gonna get better from here!!! Good Luck to you!!!
No one disereves to feel that way and everyone should have hope and something to look forward to!!!

4:04 PM  

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